Where are you Little One?
When we first saw you on the screen in the Thailand hospital, the doctor concentrating as he worked the machine that was measuring your tiny body, he told us when you would be here.
“Baby be here, October” he said as he showed us the dates on the screen.
For the next 6 months, our minds prepared for that day. When October came around, we excitedly looked at the calendar of the brand new month, the one we had been waiting so patiently for and said “one of these days will be hers”With what felt like a snap of a finger, October has now passed. You didn’t want to come out and all my previous thoughts of an October Baby have now floated away like little specks of dust.
A new month has begun, the crisp chilly mornings of November are here and once again we looked at all the numbers lined up on the calendar… “one of these days will be hers”
I have bounced on my birthing ball. I have paced up and down the stony garden path and walked in the autumnal forest leaves, I have climbed up steps, I have squatted, stood and swayed and I have gone to bed each night, willing you to come out.
My thoughts before dreams are always ‘maybe it will happen tonight’ a flurry of excitement and a flutter of nerves entwine as I close my eyes.
You have shown us that you are not a date, you will come into this world and join us when you are ready and not a day before, but little girl, don’t be scared. There are so many wonderful things waiting for you out here that your daddy and I can’t wait to show you, most of all, we just want to hold you close in our arms and breathe you in.
Our long awaited baby girl, you can come out now!